当我长期被虚无感侵蚀时，状态就好像长期被一捆绳索束缚。而当这种虚无的状态在某日被解开之后，我又忍不住想要回望虚无，就像一个人逃离深渊之后，会忍不住在洞口朝深渊望去，在虎口脱险之后却又回味、甚至迷恋曾经的危险。
When I am chronically eroded by a sense of nothingness, I feel as if I am permanently bound by a string. And when this state of nothingness was unlocked one day, I could not help but want to look back at nothingness, just like a person fleeing from the abyss, can not help looking into the abyss at the mouth of the cave, but after escaping from the jaws of the tiger, but aftertaste, even infatuated with the danger.